Whatever Happened to Lani Garver?
August 25th, 2009
What Happened to Lani Garver
By Carol Plum-Ucci
2002
Claire is recovering from leukemia and has missed 7th and 8th grades. It’s understandable that she’d find herself where she is, among people who like her but extract a high price for social acceptance. She doesn’t see it that way, of course; her anorexia and suicidal lyrics are secrets she keeps from everyone. But what can she do? She missed those vital years after elementary school but before high school when interests were peeking out and social groups were solidifying. Desperate for acceptance, she clings to the mixed-blessing of friendship with the popular crowd.
Carol Plum-Ucci has created a complex world of adolescent terror, tearing social fabric, sexual inquisitivenss, thoughtless violence, and all manner of complex and potentially destructive relationships. She captures the centrality of a teenager’s friends, the givenness of alcohol and drugs for most teens, and the resonating effects of a critical illness years after it was supposed to be over and done with. But her novel, centered on sixteen year old Claire, is filled with hope, and light filters through the darkness. Claire’s name seems to be deliberately chosen.
The catalyst for the events of the novel is the presence of a new kid in the high school. The most obvious factor about the new student is his sexual ambiguity—is he a boy or a girl? He is tall with broad shoulders, but slender with a “swishy” walk. He has no chest to speak of, but his hair is long and frames his delicate features. And, to make it worse, his name is Lani. “It’s L-A-N-I, but he said you pronounce it Lonny.”
Claire eventually decides he is a boy, though Lani never confirms or denies. Lani seems so clueless and so asking-for-a-beating that all of Claire’s compassionate instincts are aroused and she takes it upon herself to stand by him, hoping that her popularity will buy Lani some safety. But Claire soon finds that every encounter and every conversation with Lani challenges her and calls into serious question both the assumptions and the choices she’s made.
Lani’s role in Claire’s life begins to become clearer when he takes her to an inner city clinic because she is afraid her leukemia is relapsing and she cannot confide in he parents. There she encounters people with AIDS, street people, and city people…actors and musicians and nurses and doctors. She starts to make connections that were impossible in her small town, and which teach her more about herself than she ever understood. And one clinic nurse tells her, “You need to go out there in the waiting room and find yourself a floating angel.”
Claire, of course, thinks he’s speaking figuratively, but he’s not.
“They come with you on visits like these. They hold your hand and they tell you good stuff and make sense of this world so you realize it’s not so bad—”
“Oh, I came with a friend. He’s out there.” I jerked my thumb toward the waiting room. “Thinks he’s at a family reunion. Not much help.”
“That’s cuz he’s a friend. Floating angels aren’t friends; they’re real angels. They’re real. Didn’t you see any of ‘em out there?”
“Uh, no. What do they look like?”
“Like faggots.”
My eyebrows shot up. I waited for him to laugh, but he was slick. He kept banging stuff around on his cart and whistling until I cracked up, and then he looked all surprised.
“What are you laughing at? There’s nothing funny about that. Not if you got your common sense working. Angels don’t have a gender. Remember that from church school?”
“I’m Protestant,” I responded. “We’ve got no-frills religion. No angels, no art, no saints, no Mary—”
“That’s not Protestant. That’s just white-people trash,” he informed me. “Angels don’t have a gender, so what they gonna look like?”
That’s the question, and Claire goes back and forth on it. Is asexual Lani—both strong and sensitive, both fearless and gentle—is he a floating angel, sent into Claire’s life to guide her? She certainly could use some guidance, considering that the people who should be watching out for her have completely let her down. Or is he just a kind-hearted but stupid gay kid unlucky enough to land in a town full of rednecks and closet-gays who will assault him to protect their secrets?
While Claire is working that out, all sorts of questions about cultural attitudes toward masculinity and femininity get played out. Claire develops anorexia because she considers herself too tall to be feminine—she literally tries to reduce herself. And Lani attracts the violence of the athletic boys simply because his masculinity includes enjoying lovely things and moving with grace.
This is an excellent book for high-schoolers, especially as it handles themes concerning religion, sexuality, and justice. I would not recommend it for middle-schoolers, who may be unfamiliar with many of the more esoteric elements of gay culture teased out in this book (gay porn, for example), and might find the violence confusing or disturbing. But older teens will find it challenging and disquieting, in a good way.
In the end, we don’t know much more about Lani than we did at the beginning. We don’t know for sure if he was gay, or even if he was really a boy. And we don’t know if he’s an angel. But we do know that he touched Claire’s life, wrestled with her like the angel wrestled with Jacob at the river. And like Jacob’s angel, he left her a little bit wounded, but infinitely blessed.






